Monday, April 29


I went to the First Ladies Prayer Brunch today. It was great. Govenor Bush was there, and a man who does relief work in Afganistan, and a widow of one of the passengers that died Sept. 11. They all spoke. I enjoyed it.

We had a great weekend too. I have some computer work to do when I get home so hopefully I will be able to share that then.

** They smile when they want to scream.
** They sing when they want to cry.
** They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.
** They fight for what they believe in.
** They stand up for injustice.
** They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.
** They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
** They love unconditionally.
** They cry when their family excels and cheer when their friends get awards.
** They are happy when they hear about a birth or a new marriage.
** Their hearts break when a friend dies.
** They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
** They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.
** Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes.
** They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.
** The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin!
** Women do more than just give birth.
** They bring joy and hope.
** They give compassion and ideals.
** They give moral support to their family and friends.
** Women have a lot to say and a lot to give.
Some interesting Cool Quotes.

Saturday, April 27 is a link to the >> the friday five. I kind like this idea!

Friday, April 26

I have to find out how this Friday Five works
Friday Five----This is new to me.............

1. What are your hobbies?
Mine?.............Well.........I have given birth to 6 kids

2. Do you collect anything? If so, what?
I like anything that you can wind up and it plays music.

3. Is there a hobby you're interested in, but just don't have the time/money to do?
I really like gadgets, electronics, etc.

4. Have you ever turned a hobby into a moneymaking opportunity?
I teach beginner computer to folks occasionally.

5. Besides web-related stuff (burbs, rings, etc.), what clubs do you belong to?
AA ;-)
I took the girls and me to our hair cut at Fantastic Sams. Then, we went to Pizza Hut. I'm full!
Gentle thoughts for today:

1. Birds of a feather flock together and crap on your car.

2. There's always a lot to be thankful for if you take time to
look for it. For example I am sitting here thinking how nice it
is that wrinkles don't hurt.

3. When I'm feeling down, I like to whistle. It makes the neighbor's
dog run to the end of his chain and gag himself.

4. If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.

5. Don't assume malice for what stupidity can explain.

6. A penny saved is a government oversight.

7. The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at
the right time, but also to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the
tempting moment.

8. The older you get, the tougher it is to lose weight, because by
then your body and your fat are really good friends.

9. The easiest way to find something lost around the house is to buy
a replacement.

10. He who hesitates is probably right.

11. If you think there is good in everybody, you haven't met

12. If you can smile when things go wrong, you have someone in
mind to blame.

13. The sole purpose of a child's middle name is so he can tell
when he's really in trouble.

14. Did you ever notice: When you put the 2 words "The" and "IRS"
together it spells "THEIRS"?
Friday................Friday!!!! YES!!

Life is Good!

Well, I am back to normal ladies and gentlement. No freakin' pills, no craziness, no BS. Just by the grace of God, of course!! Went to see the Liver Doc yesterday. I told him I was not interested in any other treatments. I WILL NOT go through that junk anymore, and that's a fact.

Hopefully work will get back ot normal soon. My boss has been acting kind of weird. Then I guess I should consider, I have been acting REALLY WEIRD for six months.

You know those drug companies are making a fortune, and folks are having a really rough time. We take that poison out of desparation, but I want to tell you..........I AIN'T THAT FRIGGIN' DESPERATE!

Thursday, April 25

How true this is!

Hail to Girlfriends!

Get Yourself Some Girlfriends...
Young and newly married, I relaxed under a pecan tree on a hot
Texas summer day, drinking iced tea and getting to know my new
sister-in-law, Estelle. Not much older than I, but already the mother
of three, Estelle seemed to me experienced and wise.

"Get yourself some girlfriends" she advised, clinking the ice
cubes in her glass. "You are going to need girlfriends. Go places
with them; do things with them."

What a funny piece of advice, I thought. Hadn't I just gotten
married? Hadn't I just joined the couple-world? I was a married
woman, for goodness sake, not a young girl who needed girlfriends.

But I listened to this new sister-in-law. I got myself some

As the years tumbled by, one after another, gradually I came to
understand that Estelle knew what she was talking about. I remembered
that she had said the word "girlfriends" with emphasis.

As I went along, I discovered the subtle difference between friends
and girlfriends. You go to work with friends, go to dinner with friends,
go to church
with friends, belong to clubs with friends. You send friends greeting
cards. You need friends in
your life; all girlfriends were once only friends.

But a girlfriend is different. I offer this praise of girlfriends.

Here is what I know about girlfriends:
Girlfriends don't compete.
Girlfriends bring casseroles and scrub your bathroom when you are sick.

Girlfriends keep your children, and keep your secrets.
Girlfriends give advice when you ask for it.
Sometimes you take it, sometimes you don't.
Girlfriends don't always tell you that you're right, but they're always
Girlfriends still love you, even when they don't agree with your
Girlfriends might send you a birthday card, but they might not. It does
not matter in the least. Girlfriends laugh with you and you don't need
canned jokes to start the laughter.
Girlfriends don't talk about you behind your back.

Girlfriends pull you out of jams.
Girlfriends don't keep a calendar that lets them know who hosted the
other last.
Girlfriends will give a party for your son or daughter when they get
married or have a baby in
whichever order that comes!
And girlfriends are there for you, in an instant
and truly, when the hard times come.
Girlfriends listen when you lose a job or a husband.
Girlfriends listen when your children break your heart.
Girlfriends listen when your parents' minds and bodies fail.

My girlfriends bless my life. Once we were young, with no idea of
the incredible joys or the
incredible sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would
need each other. I want to tell younger women to take my
sister-in-law's advice. Get yourself some girlfriends. You are going
to need them
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And this too shall pass............everything passes you know. Whether it is good or bad, it will change. I am as back to normal as I'm gonna get right now. I have had insomnia for the past week. I am getting about 3 hours of sleep a night, but I don't feel too bad. I only worked half days for the past two days and I took the whole Monday off. I thought if I came home early, I might be able to rest. All I really want to do is clean house, but I'm mainly too tired.....LOLOL.

No pills PERIOD, Praise God!! We are having some friends over Saturday, camping Saturday night at Ft. De Soto park, and going to an AA picnic that lasts all day that Sunday.

I go see Dr. Heiman today. I am mad at him. I was taking that medication for 6 months and for me to just go off of it like, really was ridiculous. I'm glad it's over though and I WILL NOT take any more treatment or meds. Too rough for me.

Tuesday, April 23

Oxycontin Detox

It was a lot rougher than I first thought. I actually went to the Emergency Room yesterday morning, but didn't stay. Sleep is still hard, nerves twitch, muscles jump. I am going to work a half day today though. Go to my noon mtg and then rest the afternoon.

I will be so glad when things are back to normal.

Sunday, April 21

So Far So Good

Out of Ambien now too. Last two at 4 a.m. Went walking with my husband Leroy this morning. First time I have felt like even getting off the couch in months lolololol!

Took all my vitamins this morning. Kind of tired. I'm makin' a pot of coffee. Jake is taking Lee Lee and Destiny to church. I'm listing to my music channel on Launch Cast

Saturday, April 20

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Forgot to tell ya

I forgot to say that (although I had not been taking them at ALL) I had another prescription for Ambien and I had Leroy get them to go through this week. I have been taking them to help as I cut down on the oxycontin. Today, I have NO oxycontin. So far so good, but it is only 7:15 a.m. LOLOLOL. I am drinking a diet Pepsi and have taken two Excedrin for Migrane. They have caffenine in them, so maybe I can perk up. I do have the Ambien here to fall back on, but I don't feel like I will need them. I also don't feel like a major house cleaning day though either LOLOLOL.

I am a little scared and don't know what to expect. A prayer or two might help if you get around to it.

Friday, April 19

The Rebel (
Tell me if this makes sense. The kid across the street wanted Leroy to take him to cash his check but couldn't find his ID. I told Leroy that that was okay, for the kid to just sign the check, Leroy to sign the check, deposit the check into our account and take the money out. We needed to get some cash anyway. BUT the kids MoM wanted to write us a personal check. So in effect she wanted us to take him to their bank deposit the check and cash the personal check. We would still need to go to our bank and get cash that we need. I was out side and told them this didn't make sense, just cash the check for him and get out money. She acted all weird, called the kid back in, now Leroys says I should not have said anything.

For one thing, those people are constantly having Leroy DO for them. It's a daily process, and I am getting freakin' sick of it and them. And Leroy OF COURSE does not see my point. They are all freakin' nuts if you ask me. What do you think?

Oh..........I feel great again!!! Love being off the treatment. I was teaching a class all this week and that's why I haven't blogged. I am working my way off these pain pills now. I got from 80 mg of oxycontin a day to 40, and now I am going to go cold turkey. Wonder what will happen ;-)?!?!?!

Saturday, April 13

My Doc took my viral load and I am NOT in remission so he took me off the treatment. It's bad that I am not in remission, but I am starting to feel human already!!!!!! That is great!! I have been so sick so long, this is SUCH a blessing!

Friday, April 12

Wow! Doctor HTML v6 allows you to test your web page for errors. Another link stolen from my Buddy KindlyRat. I ran this page through the test, but have made no changes yet, maybe later when I have more energy.

Wednesday, April 10


Well I have splints on both my arms now. I guess that's what 10 years of full time computer use will get you.

I stopped taking my Ambian. I don't sleep as well, but I feel much better in the day time. Less depressed and even less pain. I would not recommend that medication.

My days are going by smoother, but I am still waiting for the results of my viral load test to find out whether all these month of treatment have put my Hepatitis C into remission. I think I may be able to handle another 6 months of treatment if I am in remission. A couple of weeks ago, I didn't feel that way.

Saturday, April 6

notice someone | get noticed
Happy Birthday Nikki (Jene')

I hope your life is wonderful my daughter. May God bless you with all the joy and happiness I have been unable to provide.

We are all thinking about you here, on this........your

Thursday, April 4

Make your own Virtual Host.
Sometimes... when you cry... no one sees your tears...

Sometimes... when you one sees your hurt...

Sometimes... when you are worried... no one sees your stress...

Sometimes... when you are happy.. no one sees your smile..

But fart just one time...
My boss is out this week............

I have managed to get a ton of work done though. I believe by the end of the day, my "to do" box should be empty, and I have a training to go to tomorrow.

I had an arguement with Leroy last night. I have REALLY been trying not to "get loud" with him lately, but every night he has someplace to go and ends up staying 2 or 3 hours. I don't think he is doing anything really wrong, but I just get tired of being left alone. Last night he had to go deposit and check and instead of going to the bank right by the house he went way across town, because he said the other ATM machine was exposed and he didn't want to get wet (it was raining). I called him and bitched a little and when he got home he came in and was LOUD saying he didn't think he had to report his whereabouts, etc. So I got LOUD back at him.

I don't know.....................there is TONS of stuff that needs to be done around the house, that does not get done. Stupid stuff really, but I don't like living in a house with a dirty yard, and closet doors that aren't attached. Oh well.................

Wednesday, April 3

They have a lot of neat games at
If you check out Trillian - Communicate with Flexibility and Style. Let me know what you think, okay?
The Museum of Hoaxes
This is funny --GENOCHOICE - Create Your Own Genetically Healthy Child Online!
Good Morning

And life goes on................

I got a call from my regular Doc yesterday and they are going to give me braces for my arms. The nerve conduction study they did showed I had carpal tunnel, as I have said, and pinched nerves. All I know is that my hands and arms hurt, go numb, and don't always work. It won't kill me though, so I'll be okay.

We are going to church on Sunday at a friends church and then afterwards to his house to swim and fellowship with other folks. Lots of children, and some other friends from my "program" (see link to 12 step program to the right). It should be fun, and I know the children will enjoy the pool. I am usually not a vain woman, but I wish I still had that 20 pounds off I regained lately (said as I bite a donut) lolololol

Tuesday, April 2

You can see a picture of all four editions of the big book if you want to.

Well, last Friday I went and took my viral load test and I am waiting to hear back from the Liver Doc to see if this 6 months worth of treatment and HORRIBLE side effects has done me any good.

I totally stopped taking my Ambien about a week ago, and I seem to be perking up some. Funny, I didn't realize that they might be making me feel bad.

Leroy is having a lot of problems with his allergies and he will probably need to go back to school to learn a new trade. He is a heavy equipment operator and the dirt and stuff is REALLY effecting him badly.

We heard from Joy on Easter. I guess she plans to just stay out there in Oregon. Destiny is always talking about her, and it makes me feel bad. One thing about it though, we truly love Destiny and I truly believe we are providing the best home for her that she could have.

Monday, April 1

Take a look at this site and meet Jim from Texas.
Christians in Recovery

You're the 80's Man!
No, you're not a cross-dresser. You're just the odd-shaped 80's lego man! You love the classic legos, and you're not into all these new-fangled expensive kits. Why settle for the new when the old is just as good, and far less expensive!

Take the "What Lego character are you?" test! by ctbx
What's Wrong with this picture?
It had been a while since I visited my friend at Feral Living. Miguel had even changed locations!!
Internet Cleaning Alert!

TO 12:01 AM GMT, APR. 2 !!

*** Attention ***

It's that time again!

As many of you know, each year the ENTIRE Internet
must be shut down for 24 hours in order to allow us
to clean it. The cleaning process, which eliminates
dead email, inactive ftp and www sites, and empty
USENET groups, allows for a better working and faster

This year, the cleaning process will take place
from 12:01 a.m. GMT on April 1 until 12:01 a.m.
GMT on April 2 (the time least likely to interfere
with ongoing work). During that 24-hour period,
five powerful Internet search engines situated around
the world will search the Internet and delete any
data that they find.

In order to protect your valuable data from deletion
we ask that you do the following:

1. Disconnect all terminals and local area networks
from their Internet connections.

2. Shut down all Internet servers, or disconnect
them from the Internet.

3. Disconnect all disks and hard drives from any
connections to the Internet.

4. Refrain from connecting any computer to the
Internet in any way.

5. Be sure all your Internet files are backed-up;
search engines may consider your data to be useless.

We understand the inconvenience that this may cause
some Internet users, and we apologize. However, we
are certain that any inconveniences will be more
than made up for by the increased speed and efficiency
of the Internet, once it has been cleared of electronic
flotsam and jetsam.

We thank you for your cooperation.

Kim Dereksen
Interconnected Network Maintenance staff,
Main branch,
Massachusetts Institute of Technology

Sysops and others: Since the last Internet cleaning,
the number of Internet users has grown dramatically.
Please assist us in alerting the public of the
upcoming Internet cleaning by posting this message
where your users will be able to read it. Please pass
this message on to other sysops and Internet users as well.

Thank you.

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